Life of Gouramma

It is about Gouramma, who spent her life for other’s happiness.

Gouramma helped clean the backyards of the houses on our campus. She was nearly 60, judging by the wrinkles on her face. Aayi would offer her tea and, she would sit on the plastic chair and share her stories with us; how she was all alone, her early marriage, her husband’s early demise , and many more stories like that. It is still easy for me to recall those red bangles she wore and her smile after every sip of tea she took while she pulled her saree over her head with her other hand. She always shared her story with a smile, as if she had faced the worst and life couldn't hurt her anymore. All the helpers here gathered around her every evening after work to share what was going on in their own lives, and Gouramma being Gouramma used to listen to them, share her stories, most of the times amusing stories to make them laugh. With a big bindi between her eyebrows, a silent smile on her face, she looked as if she was about to transform into a goddess at any moment. As I mentioned earlier, she had spent her life for other’s happiness, when she was young it was for her parents, she sacrificed her life getting married early in her life; after marrying it was for her drunkard husband, she sacrificed her happiness, worked in other’s houses to run her household and continued to do so. Thereafter, she was all alone, accepted her life the way it was, and kept a smile on her face no matter what happened.

We all have a Gouramma in our lives in the form of our mother, sister, wife, friends and colleagues who have sacrificed their happiness, their career, and a peaceful life for us. On this Women's Day, let's remember to appreciate them for all they have done for us over their lives and not stop at a single day.

Happy Women's Day to all the incredible women, ladies, and girls in my life - two days early, but every day is your day.

PS: On the 6th of last month, it was another normal day filled with birds chirping, monkeys bouncing around and leaves from the trees falling in the backyard, but this day didn't have Gouramma in it.

Rain Drop Fetish

 When the Earth's sad clouds cry crystal

as it palpates the ground

I smell the Earth smile

the drop on the leaf blade

trying to embrace the ground

moves with celerity on the leaf's surface

As it magnifies the green

the trees and plants radiate

their true self

And as the wind gushes through the green

the drops gravitate to seek my touch

with my eyes closed and arms wide open

I stand there waiting for the crystals to palpate my skin

feeling them make way down my groove 

and swirl in my button

I feel spasms of pleasure and chills running

down my spine.

~ Darshan Shanbhag

It rained in Dandeli for the last two days; this was something I penned down when I saw a girl enjoy the rain as if it was her last. 

Aayi, Me aani Market

Tell me a better hands-on experience than going to buy vegetables along with your parents I’ll wait. It’s like entering a battleground with the strongest warrior beside you, for me most of the time it was my mother.

Dandeli’s Market is active on Sunday’s hence it’s called Sunday Market. Every Sunday you can find most of the people from Dandeli there searching for fresh vegetables. All the villagers sit there with their fresh vegetables in that soft and diffuse sunlight with large tarpaulins protecting them from the sunlight which is tied to a pole present at the center of the market and the market is all colorful with these plastic tarpaulins of vivid colors providing shade to each and every vegetable vendor sitting over there. That Sunday morning had its own symphony filled with “Aloo bees(20) rupay kilo bees rupay bees rupay bees rupay” that always reminds me of my teacher’s who always shouted at us saying “Is this a fish market” whenever they found our class making noise and we all used to laugh and hiss. Everyone in the market was mostly in pairs, it was either a Father-Daughter pair or the Mother-Son pair. The Parent's primary aim of bringing their children to the market is to show us how to pick perfect vegetables and I am sure everyone has gone through this phase unless and until your parents are “Big Basket” users. Our parents like the perfect guru’s show us which vegetable to pick and which one you shouldn’t along with some tricks. You know what, their true patience is reflected when even after teaching you how to pick vegetables hundred’s of times and yet you pick the wrong one and put it in the basket, they are like “Baccha , Good! well done you are learning” but back of their mind they are pissed and when you are not looking  they exchange the one’s you picked with the good ones and I was no exception to such a situation. I have disappointed my parents so many times that they take me to market only to carry the heavy bags.

So my Sundays started with my Aayi (mom) sprinkling water on my face to wake me up followed by dragging a sleepy innocent boy like me to market. The only good thing about going to the market with my Aayi was Choc-bar after all the shopping she would buy me Choc-bar which was our secret which we hid from my brother. In my childhood, I had read about Ramesh and Suresh having 50 Apples and 60 Mangoes and I always wondered how did they even finish eating them and at the same time I wanted to meet them badly, I was fortunate enough to have finally met them in the market. Aayi has two rules for vegetable shopping first one is carrying two bags one for delicate vegetables like tomato, green vegetables and another one for the hard ones like kaanda(Onion), batata(Potato) and the second rule is to always have chilre(change). With all the rules ticked, we were ready to start our search for vegetables of superior quality. But before we could even start there’s this creature that always pops up from nowhere and it is none other than your mom’s friend whenever you go to the market you always find them. You see it’s fine if they talk but taking time to talk within which you could have finished shopping now that’s bad, especially when you are standing there under the scorching heat of the sun and watching two ladies discuss a daily soap that ended on a cliffhanger last night as if it were freaking Game of Thrones. Finally, they realize the main purpose of being here in the first place and bid adieu to each other. So it was shopping time now and the very first question that the vegetable vendor gets “Dada Bhindi kithi la (Brother how much for Okra)” and he replies “Vaini arda kilo la 25 aani 1 kilo la 40(sister-in-law it's 25 for half a kilo and 40 for 1 kg)”, isn’t it beautiful the way they give you respect, but there’s one thing you have to notice it’s their business tactics it is just at the level of Starbucks. Starbucks sells a small cup of Espresso at 80 bucks whereas it sells a large at 90 bucks and I am damn sure you will go for the later one, so the same goes with bhindi you are tempted to buy 1 kg and that’s obvious when it comes to human psychology. There’s always this two to three people my mother knows and she is their regular customer, she even remembers where they sit in this crowded place. I have to appreciate her memory power and then there’s me always forgetting the way to my classroom. So this two to three people who Aayi goes to buy every Sunday are like messiahs. If you buy 1kg of onions they add 3 more and sell it for the price of 1 Kg, same goes with all the vegetables and you know what’s the biggest advantage of the open market when compared to a supermarket that’s the free Pudina(Mint), Daniya(Coriander), or Ginger you get when you buy a hefty amount of vegetables from a single vendor. Aayi has certain tricks under her sleeve to pick vegetables which she has taught me. It goes right from judging tomato by its color to breaking bhindi's tip, God knows how many bhindi’s have faced my wrath and yet I have always managed to pick the wrong ones even after breaking so many bhindi tips and discriminating tomatoes by their color. The market is also that place which shows your age is just a number and to never give up. There are people in their old-age and differently-abled people sitting there selling vegetables and my Aayi makes sure I go to them and buy something even if it’s of just a small amount. Aayi was always like this trying to help people in one or the other way. She always told me how she had spent her childhood in poverty and how we should never forget from which stage of life we have reached here and I am sure each and every parent has taught good things to their children based on their past. After all this shopping, negotiating, and meeting Ramesh and Suresh Aayi buys me Choco-bar for helping her carry the bag filled with vegetables and I still remember how each bite of that bar satisfied my sweaty and heated body. 

 

Nowadays Sundays are meant for partying, trekking, binge-watching, and what not but back then this was how a Sunday used to be at least for me. With everything around digitalizing, we are probably going to order everything online. I write this just to make everyone reminisce about their beautiful memories from the past because with this video calls and all the eyes stuck to screens everywhere we somewhere forgot to enjoy such little things. So sometimes take time to visit the past that will bring the curve on your face which you have lost and it also shows you who you really are.  

 

Thank you

 

Darshan Shanbhag

  

 

Journey of a whimsical traveller

As my eyes savored the orangish sky
the fishermen trawled 
and sung songs in sync.
as the nets embrace the sand 
fishes in the net wiggled.
as the bigger ones took 
their last flop, 
the smaller ones wiggled
enough to meet the sea.
 
As the skies turn blue
the seagulls palpate the sea.
waves hitting the shore,
seagulls squawking, 
created a sense of symphony

There lied a shell 
hugging the sand tight, 
but as the waves try 
to kiss the shore
the shell tries hard 
hard enough to stay,
but the sand below the shell floods away 
as if the wave pulled the
soul out of it's body.

It was dark, dark enough
for the stars to invade the sky
Everyone sat around the bon-fire
thinking about the day
and crying within for it was all
going to end.
behind those smile were the memories 
they had created and were going
to cherish throughout their life
fire slowly lost it's intensity
so did the faces around it
for their surprise
It was going to be the only best
day of the year.

    

                                            

                                                       

                                                    

                                               

Ps: January 1st 2020, Malvan, Maharashtra

Darshan Shanbhag

The Offer Letter

                                I remember my best friend calling me, to tell me that I got placed in TCS. That memory is still fresh in my mind, I was alone at my home, my parents had gone out for some work. I thought of telling them about this after they come back home but I couldn’t refrain myself and called them to tell that their son finally got placed in a company. I couldn’t get to see their reaction but the intensity and the happiness with which they replied compensated it. That night my father(baba) brought my favorite, I guess everyone’s favorite ‘Kaju Katli’ and that was the first time he brought it.  The last time they were happy because of me was 14 years ago when I had won First prize in the speech competition.

 

         It was yesterday that I watched this movie called ‘Wake Up Sid’, I was late in doing so but better late then never. For those who have not watched it, it’s a movie based on a boy who just completed his studies and lives only on his Dad’s earning, not caring about the future and his goals. Life hits him hard when he is abandoned from his own house and slowly, he discovers his passion, what he is good at and the whole movie is about how he becomes a responsible person and how things fall into places in his life. I mentioned about the movie because there is a scene where he gets his offer letter and meets his dad and gives it to him, Maybe it was just another movie for the two actors and just another scene but for me it reminded me about the day I got my offer letter, that day I was in my room I had received my offer letter through e-mail and without even reading it I just forwarded it with a message to my dad(baba) and even before I could call him to inform him about the mail I had just forwarded him, I got a reply from him saying “Congratulations dear. God bless u”, at that moment everything around me paused for a moment, tears in my eyes, hiding my face from my roommates I somehow managed to come out of it. That was the first time in many years I had done something they could be proud of, being an average child since my childhood I couldn’t give them the happiness of scoring good marks in all the important exams in one’s life.   

 

                  “The secret of life though, is to fall seven times and to get up eight times.” -Paulo Coelho in The Alchemist and all of that makes sense when you try hard to make your parents happy and fail every next time but the efforts you put to win that one time is what matters the most. I have always complained about the things my parents decided for me right from what I should wear to what I should study and what I have to become, they never asked me what I really wanted to be but after all this, I would like to say whatever they choose for you is always the best and be grateful to whatever they have done for you, They are the only ones who support you without expecting anything in return. This mere incident of me getting a job and making my parents happy has changed me a lot maybe the work I am going to do there is not that interesting but everything is worth a try.

 

         Little things that makes us and everyone around us happy in life is what keeps us alive. Maybe sometimes you have to go through tough times to realize its importance. I want to thank all those who have guided me, supported me and helped me to become what I am today. If you have reached reading till here that could be because of two things either you are my close friend or you liked the above written thing whatever maybe the reason all that matters to me is to bring that curve on your face and I hope I have done that if not for a long time at least for a second or two.

 My Aai Baba:

                                                                                  

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Thank You

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Darshan Shanbhag

The Experimental Child

Hey there reading the title you must have wondered is this a science related topic or is it about a test tube baby? , the answer is no it’s about the normal human being the one and only first child of the family.

          You know what’s one of the difficult task you are going to have in the future that is nothing but planning a baby rather I would like to put it in this way i.e. planning for your first child and for some the only child (*the actual planned one).  According to me our parents are scientists and their children are like their samples. They start doing experiments on the samples and we all know which sample gives the worst results obviously the first one because your parents are naive and it’s their first time handling a shaped ball of mass which can breathe and do humanly stuff. Now comes the actual part as the first born grows a wall is built around it(him/her). A wall of restrictions, don’t go to play  you will fall , you’ll become dark and the list goes on . In this process of enforcing rules, the child fails to explore itself , he/she feels a sense of responsibility and is afraid to fail trying new things. This remains with him/her the whole life, carrying all the burden of the family they live life of a machine where only thing they do is work support family eat sleep, they don’t even know what they are passionate about.

        Now comes the second sample the second child, he/she is left freely to do whatever they want and they are the mischievous one (not all). They live life like there is no tomorrow, passionate towards a particular goal with less responsibility and elder siblings support they achieve success in things they do. Now that our parents know which school is good and which isn’t, which coaching is better the second ones enjoy a life far better than the firsts. Maybe this is not the case with everyone but at least some. It’s just my view and the things I have undergone. So all my first born friends out there cheers to us.

Thank you

 

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Darshan Shanbhag